There are times when I am left just staring. I can't seem to find a point of focus. I believe this happens to all of us at times and is a natural thing. Maybe my brain just need to be rebooted. That works with my computer sometimes. Is it the operating system or the software ? That is the question in this situation as well. I don't really think anything is wrong with my operating system, the firmware is intact, so it may be I have gotten a virus from somewhere. This virus is causing a slowdown of the processor. I find myself opening a lot of files simultaneously. Old files that I have archived as well as new files. It is a frustrating experience.
The frustration comes from not knowing how to get rid of this virus. The fact that I am infected or should I say, effected, is just one of those things that happen. I want to know what to do to eliminate it or at least make it go away for a while. In the computer world it would be a removal tool. What removal tool should I employ ? Years ago I may have tried beer. Beer certainly obscured some issues and aided in forgetting about the problem. The only trouble was it sometimes caused more damage. There were times when I would just lash out at those around me. That never fixed a thing. The problem lies within me and the cure does as well. I have introduced this virus and I alone must remove it.
All of this is really just a mood. Moods change given time. Patience is the cure. Patience is a virtue and a virtue that should be cultivated. But patience is a difficult thing. It is doubly so when coupled with anger. It is anger that I feel this morning but without an explanation of why. What is the cause of this anger ? I am only angry with myself, self induced by what ? I am left just staring. Whatever it is it will pass. I hope to learn the cause, so as to avoid it in the future, but the primary mission here is to just eliminate it. Failing that would indicate a problem in the operating system. I'm getting the message, do not turn off your computer, updates are being installed. Hey, it happens and it is necessary.
The frustration comes from not knowing how to get rid of this virus. The fact that I am infected or should I say, effected, is just one of those things that happen. I want to know what to do to eliminate it or at least make it go away for a while. In the computer world it would be a removal tool. What removal tool should I employ ? Years ago I may have tried beer. Beer certainly obscured some issues and aided in forgetting about the problem. The only trouble was it sometimes caused more damage. There were times when I would just lash out at those around me. That never fixed a thing. The problem lies within me and the cure does as well. I have introduced this virus and I alone must remove it.
All of this is really just a mood. Moods change given time. Patience is the cure. Patience is a virtue and a virtue that should be cultivated. But patience is a difficult thing. It is doubly so when coupled with anger. It is anger that I feel this morning but without an explanation of why. What is the cause of this anger ? I am only angry with myself, self induced by what ? I am left just staring. Whatever it is it will pass. I hope to learn the cause, so as to avoid it in the future, but the primary mission here is to just eliminate it. Failing that would indicate a problem in the operating system. I'm getting the message, do not turn off your computer, updates are being installed. Hey, it happens and it is necessary.
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