occupied

 There are mornings when I find myself occupied. What I mean is my thoughts are not centered on a single subject, but occupied with several things. Actually it is an inability to focus on a single thought. The reason for that is a mystery. I'm just wandering around, looking for trouble I guess. At least that is what Mom would say when she found you doing nothing, you're just looking for trouble. I can see the logic in that statement today, perhaps that comes with age. I would say it isn't so much as looking for trouble as pointing out faults! That is what we all tend to do, point out the faults as we see them. We do so because we don't know what else to do. That's true for me anyway, I can't really speak for others. I do so with no expectation of change even though I'm shaking things up, looking for trouble. 

 Most mornings I wake up, give it a little thought and begin to write. This morning is one of those where that didn't happen easily. It's certainly not the first time and I expect will not be the last. This morning I reached into my files and pulled out some older blogs, thought I might update them. I read a few but found I had already said what I wanted to say and had no desire to change them. In a way it is comforting to know my conclusions haven't changed but in another troubling. Aren't we told we should continue growing? Aren't we told that if we don't change we have become stagnant? Should my views change? 

 Then I justify the lack of change with the thought, truth doesn't change. But is that the truth? Are only verifiable facts the truth? Is science the only way to determine truth? I can see that philosophy and understand the logic. Science does attempt to prove everything, including the beginning of life. Is this possible? I don't believe it is. Science may provide an explanation, science may even be able to reproduce an event, but can science create intelligence? And in my way of thinking it is intelligence that created everything in the first place. Intelligent order in the universe could not happen by chance. It had to happen as a result of intelligent design. That's a truth that doesn't change. That and those truths the founding fathers described as " unalienable rights. " Those truths haven't changed since the birth of man and never will. 

 Is faith dependent upon truth, or is truth dependent upon faith? I think the answer you provide to that question tells you a great deal about yourself. You do have to be completely honest though, no cheating. It is a question central to humanity. If you believe it, is it true? It is to you, if you really believe it. If I  believe something does that make it the truth? I'd say it makes it possible. Aren't we taught to believe. Believe in yourself and all things are possible. In belief we find salvation. That is true. Is it true because we believe it, or because we have faith? 

 The answer for me,  faith is dependent upon truth. It is dependent upon what I believe to be the truth. And I believe faith requires no proof. Does truth change? No, I don't think it does. What I believe may change, altering my belief, but that doesn't change the truth. That is where faith enters the equation. It's a lot to think about, that's why I'm occupied!